Unexpected miracles.

All my life, I have wanted to be a mom. I loved playing with my dolls and creating a world where I could care for little babies all day long. Preferably lots of them. I think at one point my sister got a set of quintuplet babies that I was pretty much obsessed with. I knew that one day, I wanted a house full of babies.

My journey to motherhood didn’t come without tears. Before becoming pregnant the first time, I saw lots of doctors and took medication and peed on more sticks that I could count. And the day I saw those two pink lines, I could hardly believe it. My day had arrived. I was becoming a mom.

I have been that girl who cries when she hears someone else’s pregnancy announcement. Cries, thinking, “when will it be my turn?” Not just the first time, but also the second time around. More medication, more negatives. But eventually, a joyous moment, realizing that our family would be growing.

I had resigned myself to knowing that getting pregnant would always take effort. It wouldn’t ever be something that just “happened.” There wouldn’t be a surprise, because how could there be?

But when we were ready to welcome a third baby into our lives, we decided to wait before refilling my prescription. Just to “see what would happen.” This, my friends, is where I felt the blessing of the Father. After the countless tears I cried, always wondering, never convinced my body would carry another baby, I felt God wrap His arms around me and wipe my tears. “I heard you crying, my daughter. Don’t try so hard this time. I am making you new, from the inside out. Let me grow this baby my way, not yours.”

And make me new, He did. After three healthy, amazing, and wonderful babies came into our lives, He has continued to heal my body and work miracles in our family.

For the past 14 weeks, little baby new has been growing inside me. An unexpected miracle that we cannot wait to welcome into our home. A baby that we didn’t plan for, but one that has already shown us how big our God is. How He knows us, better than we know ourselves. And sometimes, He likes to surprise us in really big, unexpected ways.

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10 comments

  1. What a wonderful testimony! What a wonderful blessing! The bible says that children are a gift and reward! :)…and His plans are higher than our plans :) I thank God for everything He is doing in your life. What a wonderful blessing! Praise the Most High!

  2. It’s so sweet to read your story. I just love it when He works in mysterious, unexpected ways like that. Wishing you many blessings, friend as you are blessed to experience pregnancy again!

  3. I have just found your blog and reading this is exactly what I tell people now, God knows when your ready!! Me and DH has a 16 yo That was our miracle baby. I was on Fertility for 8 years and had 5 Failed pregnancy’s When we told the Dr. we were thru because our son was 10 and too old to have siblings. 1 month from that day I was pregnant with our beautiful healthy 6yo, we were going back on fertility when she was 2 so that she wouldn’t be lonely but God had other plans , by her 1st birthday we were pregnant with our now almost 5yo beautiful little girl. My Dr said its unexplainable..lol…. And of course we had another beautiful little boy a year ago… Everyone in our family thinks we are NUTS.. I just keep saying its in Gods hands…No one really Understands what I went thru , Like you , I should have bought stock in pregnancy test for those eight years and kleenex.. :) Bless you , for sharing your life with others .

    1. Amy, thank you so much for your sweet comment. What a wonderful story you have! This has been one of the hardest things in my life to really trust God to be in control of – I have wanted to take it into my own hands so many times! But He truly knows the best plan for our family. And I can’t imagine our family any other way. :) Thanks for sharing your story!

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